Today would have been our 25th wedding anniversary. We had already been looking ahead to it and discussing how to celebrate. We'd been discussing whether to have a celebratory "do" with family and friends and/ or a romantic break away for the two of us. Today would have been so special. Instead it is quiet, grey and empty, just another day.
I woke up at 3.30 this morning unable to sleep. After lunch I will go back to bed and sleep out the rest of the day. Losing someone is devastating but trying to live the rest of your life without them when you miss them so much just completely breaks you.
I am trying to carry on, to live-my-life-because-that's-what-Kev-would have wanted-blah-blah-blah.
But not today.